In my initial bereavement three CD's were my 24/7 companions.
Dave Matthews Band- Big Whiskey and The GrooGrux King. This CD was the first released after the loss of the DMB's sax player. This measure of pain and remembering was meaningful in helping me to clarify my own thoughts. We used the song "Baby Blue" for Beatrix's memorial video, which is in the left side bar. When you listen to the lyrics it will become immediately apparent why.
There is much debate, online, over whether this is a religious album. I think debate is ridiculous- it paraphrases Revelations, the Psalms, directly references heaven and God- while it may not be a "Christian" album, it nevertheless speaks about the relationship between God and Man. I found a lot of comfort in this, and look forward to seeing my daughter with Grace in her heart and flowers in her hair, at the conclusion of this life.
i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
So, this year we attempt to do it again.
I am a day late posting, but here is my day one, "Sunrise":
Because I work nights, I am unable to get up early enough to catch a sunrise- we also live in the middle of the woods and can not really see the sunrise (or sunset). By the time it is visible to us it has already reached full light- the tops of the trees illuminated. No matter how many times that I have attempted to catch a sunrise here, I have no success.
This is my post for Sunrise- my subsequent baby- sunrise after a very dark night. She is radiant. Her light creeps into every corner and knocks out all of the shadows.
I will also be posting my photos on Instagram, @shebringsjoy.